What is I?
Human life is built up in such way that the person cannot avoid contact with the environment which surrounds him or her. Life is made of a daily chaos of diverse events. I define my life as the state of my inside and outside worlds. The freshness of the morning sunrise gives me the power to begin a new day and its incredible adventures. The whole day I engage different issues. For me, evening is the time of relaxation and of rest. I spend it with my friends and family. At night, I am in an amazing state of mind and I consider my life and the events that took place during the day. Some of them I try to overcome, others I enjoy, and those that remain. I just accept. My pessimistic young heart makes me hesitate with any new episode that occurs in my life. Still, every new day is a new experience that consists of meeting and communicating with new people. I like my life and everything that is involved with it. My friends, my family, and my development are all apart of my life. I wondered what would happen if all of them would disappear? That seems a strange question for me since it is impossible to imagine. If the people in my life were not here, I would not be here either. It would mean that there would be no “I” in the world. So, what is “I”? “I” is my life and every detail in it. As I said above, my life is the sum of the day-to-day actions that happen around me. “I” is an enormous idea that has an endless list of characteristics. Yet the main thought of “I” is held in each element that surrounds me. “I” is my parents, my friends, my feelings, my experiences, my daily actions, my weaknesses and strengths, my religion and beliefs, my senses, my soul, my inside and outside state, and many other things I can not even begin to list. Moreover, any occurrence automatically becomes my “I”. So, there is no particular definition for “I” because it is indefinable and endless. It amplifies every day by every new experience.
In spite of the fact that my “I” changes every day, it has a list of attributes that are inseparable. The most important part of my “I” is my parents and my home. My parents are my life. They are my flesh and blood, and an important part of who “I” am. Their presence leads to my success. My “I” is not sufficient without them. Sometimes, I even think that I am not mature enough to be without them. I recognize that I am still a small kid that needs to be attended to. Their support and belief in me is key to my life. “When I miss my Mom I take some of her clothes to smell. In that moment, when I smell her cloths, I think that she is near me and my bad mood disappears quickly. Even in the US, when my family is thousands of kilometers away, I feel their presence through their smell. That helps me stay on my legs.” Along with the inseparable attributes that define my “I”, memories also play and important role.
Thus, memories become the second significant point of my “I”. “I” is my memories that can make me either happy or sad. As any future is impossible without past, my “I” does not exist without my memories. The way I live is linked to events that happened to me in the past. I learn every hour, every minute, and every second. My mind distinguishes the bad and good sides by memorizing. I can do something wrong, but it will help me do something better in the future. Whether good or bad, all of my memories play a part in defining my “I”. It is part of me and therefore it is my “I”. For example, I hate coffee. This is not the case because is bad, it is only bad memories that have created the idea that coffee is not good. In one of my previous essays I wrote that “in childhood I drank so much coffee that I can still remember its taste and smell. I will remember the taste of that coffee for all of my life. Even though 14 years have passed, I still cannot drink or smell coffee because I drank so much on that night.” So, my past has an impact on my present and future. My past determines my present, and my present defines my “I”.
“I” is also my beliefs and thoughts. They express my inner world. My inner world is full of amazing ideas and incredible fictions. “My outer world is how people perceive me. But nobody can ever see my inner world, that is why nobody can know me better than I know myself.” At times, it seems to me that I do not even know myself. My habit of changing everything at the last minute scares me. I really do not know what to expect from myself. My inner world has the same importance as my outer world. In fact, I live more with my inner world because the consequence of my actions are the result of my thoughts.
Along with its definition of who I am, “I” is my strengths and weaknesses. The strengths are the way I achieve success in life. It is what makes me who I am right now. Regardless of the fact that my weaknesses are my susceptibility, they still have their own charm in my personality. My biggest weakness is to trust everyone. Still, it makes my individuality different from that of others. The distinguishing features of my strengths and weaknesses forms my “I,” since they define my goals and success in life.Development, physically and mentally, is also my “I.” Thus, “I” can become abroad concept because of the knowledge that I gain through new research. My “I” is unanswered questions like “What is reality?” My response to the question is: “Nobody knows.” Nobody knows and I am not an exception to that list. This is the way that my mind reasons. It leads me to a new part of my “I,” my mind. I am very happy by the fact that people cannot read each other’s thoughts. Otherwise, the essential “I” would disappear in an instant. The way my mind thinks and makes decisions is different from the way my classmates think, for instance. It distinguishes me from them. Hence, it defines my “I.” “I” is each of my senses, though each sense describes my “I” in its own way. What about the sense of vision? In an essay dedicated to the topic I used an example from my own personal experience. I discussed vision and the way it shows me diverse people, sometimes in an erroneous manner. To emphasize my point of view I used proofs from my personal experience about the way I made acquaintance with my best friend Adam, who is part of my present life. Moreover, my vision gives me an opportunity to make my “I” more vivid. As said above, “I” is the world around me, my vision makes this world more extensive. “I” can see the actions around it and respond to them. Vision is a great power that allows me to see my friends, my parents, my new days, and my achievements that are an inseparable part of my “I.”
The sense of taste, in its turn, expresses “I” through the description of my favorite food. As I underlined in one of my essays: “The word flavor is a strictly individual notion. Someone likes products with a bitter or sweet flavor, someone gives preference to sour products, and so on.” Specific flavors demonstrate my “I” in a special way. I like the taste of products that many people consider uneatable. For example, my attitude toward lemons is very different from that of most people. I enjoy eating lemons raw, they help me to overcome problems. Bad mood, stress, and fatigue fly away when I eat a lemon. I wrote in one of my works: “I have a favorite flavor with which I indulge myself. Why do I enjoy it? From the beginning I felt a burst of energy after eating it. I feel that I am eating something strong in taste. First, I feel it only in my mouth, but then it goes to all parts of my body even to my mind. Its unique taste, which is not desired by most, is able to distract me from any problem at hand . In the process of eating you feel a burning on your tongue! That gives you great pleasure! Thus, eating lemon brings me a mass of EMOTIONS!” Consequently, my sense of taste makes me extraordinary from others too, as one of the inseparable parts of my “I.”
The sense of smell in my “I” plays the role of a distinguishing tool. “All my friends, parents, and sisters have their own smell with which I distinguish them from other people.” I like people by their smell. A new smell is a new entry in my “I.” “I” is the world around me. Yet the smell around me is the aroma of this world that makes it special.
“I” is my ability to touch too. I appreciate the sense of touch that helps me to feel and to undergo any new event in life. My intimate friends and relatives are my outer world . Thus, their touch assists to live and to feel loved. As I said before, my intimate people are apart of my “I.” Therefore, their touch is proof of love. Love, in turn, is a supportive tool of “I,” which leads it to exist. “The kiss, hug, or cuddle from parents was the way I felt secure and loved… Touch can describe love without words. I can say no words, still I can kiss my lover when I am going outside and coming home to show my concern about him.” I feel people by though touch, and through touch I define my “I.”
The sense of hearing is the way I listen to my world. The ability to hear is the way “I” perceives everything around it. Through the opportunity to hear, I can listen to every rustle and vibration near me. Music, for example, develops my “I” and makes it happier by relaxation. It is indescribably pleasant to listen to the playing of a Spanish guitar or piano after a long, nerve-racking day. I am letting music take away my emotional experience and tiredness that accumulated through the whole day. Thus, “I” is the music that I listen to and the events that I hear.
“I” is a whole big world that contains each detail in my life. Everything that occurs in my life is my “I.” My every sense is part of my “I.” Each sense differently reflects my “I,” but each of them is something significant for me. I feel people with my sense of touch. I listen to them with my sense of hearing. I see the people with sense of vision. I use my sense of taste every day. The way I live and my whole life is my “I.” This list continues endlessly. Consequently, there is no way to define each detail of my “I,” since it changes every day.
Expanding my paper: I need to work more on the impact of senses on my “I”. I should provide more information about each sense of mine. Moreover, the work on conclusion should be done. I am going to add more about how my “I” changes every day by different kind of hearing, by new seeing, new feelings and tasting. Additionaly, I am going to work on beliefs and thoughts.
